A Bit of my History as seen through my Blog

[cherylannhannah]

I decided to revisit an old blog that I had which I had closed off from public viewing. The following link gives you the post just before my marriage broke down and just before I was excommunicated from my church. I don't overtly mention my marriage breakup because my ex-husband was reading my posts to keep tabs on me. Now that I am safely divorced, I don't care if he sees it.

Anyhow, here is the link to get you started if you are at all interested:

<a href="http://knoxknoxwhosthere.blogspot.com/2006/08/my-summer-so-far-i-havent-been-posting.html#links">Deformed Musings</a>

It's funny how reading that can bring it all back.
Cheryl

[coleslaw]

If you just type in the address, like this
knoxknoxwhosthere.blogspot.com/2006/08/my-summer-so-far-i-havent-been-posting.html#links
it posts as a link.

If you want to have the title show up as a link, it's a little more complicated. Type url=http://knoxknoxwhosthere.blogspot.com/2006/08/my-summer-so-far-i-havent-been-posting.html#linksDeformed Musings/url
but enclose the url=http://knoxknoxwhosthere.blogspot.com/2006/08/my-summer-so-far-i-havent-been-posting.html#links part and the /url part with square brackets []

Deformed Musings

[cherylannhannah]

Thanks, Coleslaw. I'm not very proficient with html and all that. If people go to knoxknoxwhosthere.blogspot.com/ and then go back to the summer of 2006, that is basically where my journey out of my marriage/reformed church/quivering began.

There are some gaps in that story because I was highly conscious of being read and judged by those I had just separated from and so some details are left out -- like the fact that one of the first things I did when I was excommunicated was to make an appointment with my OB/GYN to get my tubes tied. No man, and no church, was going to tell me I had to have more children!

I think it is time for me to start writing again on my blog. I've begun to realize that it isn't merely self indulgence, but also might be of help to others who have similar struggeles.

[nikita]

I went to your blog (you totally need to start writing again, I think) and found the excerpt from Douglas Wilson's 'sermon' on modesty. I was filled with the most surprising rage by his words. I think the part that fills me with fury is that he thinks that my life is his business. It's the Reform position, that they speak for the true Christian Church and the rest of us are all full of it and committing 'adultery' against God both doctrinally and in our 'not quite good enough' lives. Because they know all, have it all figured out, and are only too happy to let the rest of us know how we are failing them this week. Every week. Every day. Every hour.

And I just become rageful, because they don't have that right nor that authority. They take it on themselves, but it's not theirs to take. And they are hurting a lot of people in the process.

Anyway, I thought I'd share my reaction with you. That is certainly not your blog's fault, it was just that one excerpt that ignited me.

But I think it would be helpful to hear from you on your blog, to hear how you are coping and what you are learning and understanding, whether any one else understands or agrees with it or not. I liked that that one commenter said she was so relieved to find a blog from someone like her who didn't flame her for being imperfect or something. I liked that your blog helped that clearly overburdened mom of many that day.

So....interesting. Thanks for linking it.